I’ve been feeling very much like something is missing in my life lately. It’s such an odd sense and one that I can’t quite put my finger on. I’m desperately trying to figure out what is going on and wonder why I’m feeling this way. Maybe it’s my age; at 44, I think most of us start to dwell on what we’ve accomplished thus far, and then we start to wonder where we’re headed for the remainder of our days.
So after thinking on this for quite some time, I’ve finally decided that what I really need is time away. A break from everything and everybody around me. Time to reflect on my life and really determine what I want to do with my future. I’ve been feeling sort of stuck lately.
My two oldest daughters are getting married this year and so I’ll just have two left at home. I’m getting a bit antsy to do more with my own life and feel ready to make some life changing decisions if I have to. I don’t know what that really means for me, but I think what I really need to do, is to start thinking about my future career goals.
I’ve been out of the Biotechnology field for many years now and so I really doubt I would go back to that again. I am still extremely interested in learning website design or having any sort of computer job in which I could work from home. I also like the idea of an editing job, or possibly having a full-time writing career. There are just so many things to consider and I feel like I’m just wasting my time thinking about all of it, when I really just need to come up with a firm plan on what I should do.
So after contemplating all of these things, I have decided to head up to northern Wisconsin for a week by myself to sort everything out. I won’t be blogging during that time, as I really don’t want to have any other obligations, except of course to figure out what I’m going to do from here on out.
I may take a few of my book ideas with me, and see what happens with those. Who knows, maybe I’ll be so inspired, that I’ll start writing an amazing novel while I’m gone and be able to finish it before the year is done! Wouldn’t that be an accomplishment? Anyway, I’ll just have to wait and see what happens.
I’m getting excited though. This will be the first week in my life, that I’ve ever been completely alone. I just booked my reservations at a cottage in the middle of a forest, and I can’t think of a better place to go to find my inspiration. If you had an entire week to go someplace by yourself and do whatever you wanted while you were there, where would you go, and what would you do?