Love…

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“Love is sometimes like a burst of molten lava; flowing outward in all directions, and then lingering in the cracks and crevices as it slowly begins to cool. But it’s a dispiriting sight when it loses its bright red luster, becoming instead, a hardened form of magma. There’s just no way to change it back to its original, radiant form.” ~M


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Rambling…

I finally started seeing a therapist several months ago, and my therapist has tasked me to try and figure out what I want for myself. I never really think about what I want out of life without first thinking about how my desires will impact everyone else around me. And according to my therapist, this seems to be an area that I need to work on. I place others needs before my own a lot of the time, and I mainly do it because I try to protect my friends and family, and do what seems best for them. I also tend to compare myself to other people, and think that if they’re alright with something, that I should be too. And right now, there are a lot of people telling me that I should be okay with the life I have and appreciate what I have. A lot of people think I should disregard the hard to deal with issues in my life, and just accept everything as it is; but should I? That’s another question my therapist wants me to figure out for myself. And according to him, I need to stop listening to other people and make some decisions for myself. The problem is, making decisions is difficult for me. I grew up in a very strict home, being directed and told what to do every day of my life. I wasn’t allowed to make my own decisions. And so when I was finally out on my own for the first time, having to make decisions for myself, I really didn’t know how to do that. I think it’s funny how our growing up experiences affect us so much later on in life. But this is just one example of how our upbringing can really screw us up. I know my parents did the best they could, but I just wish my mother hadn’t been so darn overprotective. Oh well… I’ve made plenty of mothering mistakes myself. Just ask my four girls… I’m sure they have a million stories to tell. I guess we can only try and do our best. We are only human, after all.

I really loved my rose-colored glasses…

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I’ve kept silent for a long time because I wasn’t even sure what to say. And even now, I really have no idea how to articulate all that I’ve been wanting to share. The one thing I do know is that this year has been really hard; maybe even the most difficult year of my life. The thing is, I feel like I have nobody else to blame except myself. I’ve made some very stupid decisions, and I’ve been paying the price for a lot of them. And it’s interesting to me, at the age of 47, that I am still making such idiotic decisions. One thing I’ve realized is that I need to start trusting my gut more and not allow people to walk all over me. This entire year, I’ve been choosing to disregard things that I didn’t want to believe because it was just easier to look the other way. I thought it was better to ignore what was right in front of me, and give the people in my life unlimited opportunities to redeem themselves. But that way of thinking only backfired and has sort of destroyed the trusting side of me. I know now without a doubt that I have nobody else to blame except for myself because I chose to ignore the obvious, and accepted the consequences in doing so. But I’ve also learned that I can’t allow it to happen anymore, and even if it means further heartache, I have to continue to stand up for myself. I really loved my rose-colored glasses, and if I could wear them for the rest of my life, I would. But I’ve decided that those glasses have outgrown their usefulness. The world isn’t rosy at all, and I don’t know why I ever decided to pretend it was.


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July 2019 Writing Prompt Participants

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Thank you to everyone who participated this month!  I was surprised to see so many new faces!  I hope all of you will continue to write through August.  I think I might even try to do all of the prompts this month since I’m homeschooling again.  My girls and I have always had fun writing together in the mornings before the school day officially begins, so we’ll see how far I get!  Take care everyone and have a wonderful month of writing!  ~M

  1. An appetite for affection

Jaquintinwriter – https://jaquintinwriter.wordpress.com/2019/07/01/hankering-for-companion-tanka-poem/

Zombie Flamingos – https://zombieflamingoes.com/2019/07/01/july-writing-prompts-day-1-an-appetite-for-affection/

Playing with words – https://playingwithwords.blog/2019/07/01/an-appetite-for-affection/

Nut House Central – https://nuthousecentral.wordpress.com/2019/07/01/july-writing-prompts/

Cosistories – https://cosistories.wordpress.com/2019/07/01/an-appetite-for-affection/

NEWLIFEDURINGMIDLIFE – https://newlifeduringmidlife.blog/2019/07/06/the-curse-an-appetite-for-affection/

Night Owl Poetry – https://dorindaduclos.com/2019/07/07/playful-puppy-poetry-haiku-julywriting/

This N That With Me – https://cthisnthat.wordpress.com/2019/07/17/july-prompt-mashup/

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August Writing Prompts

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Hey Everyone,

Here are the new writing prompts for August.  I hope you’ll enjoy these as much as I enjoyed coming up with them.  Have a great month of writing everyone!  ~M

1) Echoing desires
2) Always in a crowd
3) Silky submersions
4) Unraveling steel threads
5) Cynicism at its finest
6) The first of its kind
7) Treading lightly
8) Jellyfish jolts
9) Hiccupping haikus
10) An unencumbered life
11) The thumbprint thief
12) Half a dozen
13) Skulls and shackles
14) For keeps
15) That one time
16) Juniper and hibiscus
17) Zebra stripes
18) The magnificent me
19) Nail polish nightmares
20) Genuine and virtuous
21) Masterful scribblings
22) Heightened senses
23) Boot straps and cowboy hats
24) Mediocre manicotti
25) Past futures
26) Dillydally days
27) Finders keepers
28) Exponential risks
29) Bold and billowy
30) Wonky whiskers
31) Savoring the thrill

If you’re new to prompt writing, and don’t really understand how to use the prompts, please consider the following writing exercise.

Settle into your favorite place in the house with a hot drink to warm your waking bones.  Once you’ve warmed up a bit; grab your journal, a trusty pen, and a timer.  Then, set your timer for ten minutes and begin writing about one of the prompts.  Don’t worry about spelling, punctuation, neatness, or anything like that; just write!  Write about anything and everything that comes to your mind, and don’t stop until the ten minutes are up.

I often find myself writing short stories or poems during those ten minutes, but you can write about anything you like.  And don’t be alarmed if what you’ve written doesn’t quite make sense.  The whole idea behind doing this exercise is to get your mind ready and working so that you can begin your day.  Just think of it as exercise for your brain, and once you’ve done your ten minutes of writing, you’ll feel more prepared to tackle the rest of your day.

As always, I will be writing and posting over on my other blog, which can be found here. So please come visit me if you get a chance, and hopefully I can keep up with all of you!

And one last thing before I forget!  I made a quick tutorial for those of you who have been having trouble trying to figure out how to Pingback your posts.  Please go here, if you’d like to view the tutorial.  😉