Tag: depression

Never let them go…

~ ~M ~ 2 Comments

“There are a rare few who have the ability to heal our scars.  I find myself holding on tight whenever I’m lucky enough to find one.”  ~M

“Medicine”

You’re my bulletproof vest when it’s getting dangerous
Always make me feel blessed, you’re my guardian angel
You are, you are, you are
Yeah, you are, you are, you are

You put your body on mine when they’re taking aim
You’re the pin in my heart, it’s a hand grenade
You are, you are, you are
The cure for all my scars

I feel like you
Could save me now
When I’m suicidal
Don’t let me spiral

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You kiss away the pain of all the hell I’m in
You’re gonna make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, you’re my medicine

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You take the pain whenever I’m in hell again
I know you’ll make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, yeah, you’re my medicine

You always say we should move to LA (move to LA), yeah
I’ll buy you a plane and I’ll fly you away (fly you away)
You are my heroine, you’re my escape
Everything gonna be Gucci today

I feel like you
Could save me now
I know I hurt you
I don’t deserve you, no no

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You kiss away the pain of all the hell I’m in
You’re gonna make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, you’re my medicine

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You take the pain whenever I’m in hell again
I know you’ll make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, yeah, you’re my medicine

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
‘Cause you’re my medicine
Yeah, yeah, whoa oh

I love the way you look in that Balenciaga
One sip of you, I’m hooked, I wanna hit it harder
No drug could feel this good, now I’m addicted to you, ooh
(Yeah)

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You kiss away the pain of all the hell I’m in
You’re gonna make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, you’re my medicine

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You take the pain whenever I’m in hell again
I know you make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, yeah, you’re my medicine

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
‘Cause you’re my medicine
Yeah, yeah, whoa oh
 
~James Arthur
 

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Time to make some changes – March 2021

~ ~M ~ 25 Comments

This past year was not the best year for many reasons, and I think many of you can probably relate. So this year, I decided to make some small changes that I thought might help my overall physical and mental health.  For the past two months I’ve written about the goals I’m hoping to achieve, and you can read about those goals here.

I must admit, February was awful. The only goal I continued with was my daily step goal. I was able to manage 10,000 to 12,000 steps per day but gave up on all my other goals after the first week. I know the reason I didn’t do so well was because of some personal issues I was dealing with at the beginning of the month, and I just couldn’t get motivated after dealing with all of that. So after the first week of February, I decided to give myself the rest of the month off and restart my goals at the beginning of March.

Needless to say, I’m happy February is behind me now and I’m hopeful that my emotional state will just keep improving. I haven’t even weighed myself yet because I’m afraid to look at the scale. I have a doctor’s appointment scheduled at the end of this month, and I was really hoping to be in better physical shape by then. I know I can’t achieve all of my goals overnight, so I’m giving myself a little bit of grace, and I’m also giving myself some credit for at least sticking to my walking routine. I’ll be back next month and hopefully, by then, I’ll have better news to share. I’m determined not to give up because I know that won’t get me anywhere. So here’s to restarting once again! 🍻 Cheers! ~M xo