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#weekendcoffeeshare – Do you ever just feel like giving up?

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Good morning fellow bloggers!  How have all of you been lately?  I’m so glad you decided to visit me today.  I’ve got plenty of hot tea and coffee, or iced tea if you prefer that instead.  So pick what you like best and let’s sit down and have a heart to heart talk.  Okay, I’m not gonna lie.  This conversation is not going to be all hearts and flowers.  But I’m keeping it real today.

So here it is, I’m just gonna lay it all out here and let my heart sort of bleed onto this boring white page.  I’ve been struggling worse than I think I ever have before.  I can’t seem to escape these depressive thoughts anymore.  I’m doing everything in my power to try and do something about it.  Since writing is what I’m most passionate about, I’ve been trying to focus on creating more humorous posts.  I’m also getting outside more and doing things that I normally love to do.  But for some reason, I just can’t seem to lose this sinking feeling within myself.  I’m not really sure what to do about any of it.  I’m definitely feeling the pull to break away from everything and everyone around me.  I’ve been doing the fake smile thing lately.  Hopeful that nobody notices how I’m really feeling.  Of course then there’s always that one person who ruins it for me and asks me how I’m doing.  Then the tears start to well up and I can’t even answer back.  And of course they have no idea why their question has set me off and I end up feeling like an idiot for not being able to respond to their question properly.

I’m also at a crossroad in my life right now and I’m making a huge effort to try and work on my relationship with my hubby.  He’s about to leave again since he’s in the military and I’m not sure when I will have a chance to see him again.  I very much love him, but I feel our relationship is still very fragile, and because he’s leaving, I wonder if it’s going to hinder the progress that we’ve made.  Fear is sort of taking hold of me at the moment because we are facing so many unknowns.  Anyway, he and I have talked in depth about all of this and I think we are both just sort of holding our breath, hopeful for a happy ending.  These last couple of years have taken their toll on both of us and perhaps being apart will be the best thing for us.  Being away from each other has often helped us in the past.  It seems to give us the time we need to sort out our feelings.

Another thing I’m struggling with is the fact that I don’t really know anybody where I live, and so with my hubby leaving, I’m beginning to feel like I’m about to be stranded.  We’ve always moved around so much that I’ve never really been able to establish any close friends where I live.   And because we’re always moving, I also tend to shy away from making friends in the first place.  It seems easier not to have any friends than to always be saying goodbye to them.  Since I really don’t have any close ties to Wisconsin, I’m thinking I will welcome another move in the coming future.  I’ve always loved the feel of a fresh start in a new place.  I get bored easily when I stay in one place for too long and my love for travel leaves me ever wanting to get away.

Anyway, these are the main things I’m struggling with at the moment, and so if I tend to throw a sort of depressive post in the batch once in a while, please forgive me for doing so.  I’m just not always in the best frame of mind and sometimes there are days which just seem to get the better of me.  I hope all of you are doing well and staying in good health.  I want to thank all of you for being my long distance friends and for always showing me how much you care.  Blogging has been a great outlet for me, and since I do move around so much, I’m blessed that I can take all of you with me wherever I go.  😉

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Priceless…

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“A priceless and fine work of art, can be found within a warm loving heart.”  ~M


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The results are in!

Well, as many of you know, I have been participating in the Whole30 program over the last month.  For those of you who don’t know what this is, it’s a diet program which mainly consists of eating fruits, vegetables, and meat for 30 days.

It worked so well for my family and I that we have decided to continue eating this way on a regular basis.  We all feel so much healthier and have a lot more energy.  My husband had been dealing with skin rashes for over a year now, and those have been completely eliminated.  And I had been suffering from lifelong digestive issues, and have found that I am free of the issues I used to have.  But just to give you a little more in-depth knowledge before you go and jump on the bandwagon, I wanted to give you some pros and cons for this diet plan.
 

Pros:

  • You can eat as much as you want and you don’t have to count calories. We ate three meals every day and usually a couple of snacks as well.  Nobody was ever left feeling hungry and it was nice not having to write down and keep track of every single thing we ate.  Most diets require this, and I feel like it begins to get too overwhelming for me and then I just give up and lose interest.
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  • You will lose weight. Without exercising, I still lost 6 lbs and 2.5 inches around my waist.  My husband exercised some, and had better results than me.  He lost a whopping 15 lbs!  So proud of him!  Our girls lost a total of 8 lbs, and have found that their clothes are starting to fit better.  Not bad for a 30 day period!
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  • You will have more energy and many of the health problems that you may already have, usually improve immensely.
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  • You don’t need to worry about vitamin supplements. If you eat according to the Whole30 plan, those expensive supplements aren’t needed.  You get enough nutrients through the foods that you eat.
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  • You’ll learn a lot about nutrition and feel accomplished when you figure out that most of what you’ve been buying at the store, you can actually make at home yourself.
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  • You’ll begin to crave sugar less, and find out just how good fresh fruits and vegetables really are.
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  • You’ll love the way your body looks and feels and have a more positive outlook because of it.
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    Cons:

  • You’ll have to spend a lot of time planning before you begin this program. We ended up completely gutting our pantry and had to give most of our food away before we even started.
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  • This program is time consuming. You have to read every label at the grocery store and cooking becomes an all-day chore at times.
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  • Your skin will break-out more in the beginning, because the toxins in your body are being expelled.
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  • There will be days in the beginning when you feel like giving up, because you may suffer headaches from caffeine withdrawals and feel tired because instead of getting your energy from sugar, your body is now having to get that same energy from fat. This process takes a few weeks, and so you’ll begin to wonder if it’s even worth continuing.
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  • You’ll find your pocket book a little lighter. Buying organic is pricey and some of the grass fed meats I found were as much as $10.00 per lb, and that was for chicken!
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  • You’ll find it’s very hard to eat this way if you are someone who has a very busy lifestyle, and needs the convenience which fast food offers. There really isn’t anything at a fast food restaurant that is allowed during the Whole30 program.  So you’ll have to pack your home cooked meals and take them with you when you’re on the go.
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  • And the biggest issue of all… you’ll feel so good by the end of it, that you’ll almost be afraid to ever eat another candy bar again or drink another caffeinated beverage. It will ruin your life in the best possible way and you will resent the Whole30 program because of it.
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    My family and I considered this an experiment with food and we’ve realized just how much junk food used to negatively impact our lives.  I truly believe that if we continue eating this way, we will all live longer healthier lives and be happier for it.  So with that said, I highly recommend the Whole30 diet program for anyone who wants to eliminate starvation diets, have more energy, and have fewer health issues.  The only way you’ll know if it’ll work for you, is to give it a try.  I hope you will, and if you do, let me know and I’ll be happy to give you some moral support along the way.

    Here’s a sampling of some of the meals we’ve been eating:

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    #MidnightMadness – 5/2/2017

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    “The world is a much happier place, with an understanding friend by your side.”  ~M


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    #MidnightMadness – 4/23/2017

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    Spring has finally sprung in Wisconsin!  ~M

    This is my favorite shrub in our yard.  It only blooms for about two weeks, but it’s absolutely gorgeous when it does.  ❤️

    #MidnightMadness – 4/22/2017

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    Never a dull moment!

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    “Even the tiniest things in life can be full of big surprises!”  ~M


    Originally posted: September 26, 2015

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    #MidnightMadness – 4/11/2017

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    “I bet I’m the luckiest child on earth, with good parents like you and a comfy bed!”

    ~Autumn Cook (Age 8)

    *Which she proudly proclaimed while saying goodnight, with kisses and bear hugs to boot!  I just hope the teen years go this well!  Lol… 😉

    And yes, that’s really her in the photo.

    #MidnightMadness – 4/4/2017

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    Every night at the dinner table, one of us poses a question for everyone to answer.  Tonight my daughter Autumn asked this one; she said,

    “If you could go back in time, how far back would you go, and why?”

    So now I’m asking you… my fellow blogger friends.  How would you answer this question?  For me, I don’t know if I’d go back at all since I’m not quite sure what I would hope to accomplish.   ~M

    #MidnightMadness – 4/1/2017

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    *Sorry, I know the Super Bowl has passed, but there’s gotta be at least some sort of game on the tube to keep you happily occupied this weekend; if in fact, you’re having this done.  I don’t see an expiration date on this, so sounds like it’s still a valid coupon; and with free pizza and a bag of frozen peas, you can’t possibly go wrong!  Have a lovely weekend boys!  Lol…  😉


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    (And if you didn’t find the picture funny, just look at where I found it!  Lol…)

    #MidnightMadness – 3/29/2017

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    When you wish upon a star, what do you wish for?  ~M


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    #MidnightMadness – 3/28/2017

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    “Every life in this world has been painted by God’s own hand.  That’s why I am thankful to God because when he painted my life, he included a lovely color that is YOU.”  ~CBC

    *My husband wrote this note and gave it to me several months ago.  I consider it to be, one of the sweetest things anyone has ever said to me. 


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    #MidnightMadness – 3/27/2017

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    As I was leaving my daughter’s bedroom tonight after tucking her into bed, she called out to me in her sweet quiet little voice, and said, “I’m so glad I have you as my mom.”  Of course, I had to rush right back in and give her another hug.  She is just too precious for words.  Thank you God, for blessings such as these. 


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    #MidnightMadness – 3/21/2017

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    “Can anyone truly be happy if they aren’t free?”

    ~Belle (Beauty and the Beast)


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    #weekendcoffeeshare – A Place of Acceptance

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    How is everyone today on this brisk March morning?  I filled up on Irish coffee last night in celebration of St. Patrick’s Day, so the coffee this morning seems a bit boring and bland in comparison.  Hold on… there we go.  A bit of whipped cream should do the trick!  Ahh…. Perfection!  And in my favorite mug too!  So good…

    Alright now, are you ready for the scoop on this week?  Well, if we were having coffee, I’d tell you that after all the soul-searching I’ve been doing in recent days, I think I’ve finally come to a place of acceptance.

    Can I get a Hallelujah and a Praise the Lord!?!  Thank you… 😉

    Anyway, I’ve started to resolve many of the things I’ve been struggling with. I feel stronger this week, happier than I’ve been in a long time.  There’s finally a sense of peace that has come over me, and I feel determined to be content where I’m at and enjoy the life I have.

    Don’t get me wrong, though, coming to terms with everything hasn’t been easy.  I’ve done a lot of praying over the last few months, and questioned God about so many things.  I wanted him to reveal to me why he had allowed some of the recent things in my life to happen, and he has been answering me in ways which I never expected.

    One thing I’ve realized is that I’ve been focusing way too much on how others make me feel, and not enough on finding my own happiness within myself.  So to combat this problem, I’ve been giving myself more time alone to do the things which make me happy.

    One thing I’ve done which is still working for me has been to stick with a writing schedule.  I’ve been able to push myself farther than I ever thought possible.  Last week I decided to check out Grammarly online, to see if it would be helpful.  At the end of the week, I received a report stating that I had edited 15,000 words for the week.  I really had no idea how much I had actually been writing and I was completely surprised by the word count.

    I think the reason I’m able to get so much done, is that I’ve stopped making excuses, and I’m writing for myself; not anyone else.  I’ve gone back to the basic principle which I began with two years ago.  I am writing whatever I want to, regardless of what others will think.  And yes, that does feel a little bit selfish, but I’m tired of having to worry about stepping on somebody’s toes or perhaps offending someone who may have issues with the content of my writing.

    This blog started out as a way for me to spill my heart out on a page and resolve things I was struggling with.  I want my blog to always be that way for me and I’ve been holding back at times.  I was worrying too much about what others would think and I seriously wondered if I would be misunderstood.

    After much deliberation, I have begun posting some of my older poems from a blog that never seemed to go anywhere.  I have quite a few poems left to carry over, and although they don’t relate to my current situation in life, they were things I struggled through, and I know others will be able to relate to them.  So I feel they are worth posting, and it also gives me a bit of a reprieve on days when I don’t want to write something new.

    I don’t think I mentioned it last week, but I finally submitted one of my poems for publication in a magazine.  One which is just about to release its very first issue.  The release date is scheduled for April 20th and I’m excited to find out if my poem will be chosen.  There’s just something about finally seeing my work published on good old-fashioned paper, which really excites me.  I can only hope it will actually happen this time!

    I also realized that I’ve made it to the halfway mark in editing my Revelations of the Past series.  If you’re interested in reading it, here’s the link to the series.  I release new chapters twice a week; usually on Wednesdays and Sundays.  If you like historical fiction, then please check it out!  My subscribers are dwindling, so please come and read.  I would really appreciate your support.

    Well, enough about me and my week.  What about you and your week.  Anything new and exciting to share?  If so, please leave me a comment and tell me what you’ve been up to.  I love my blogging family and I’m so grateful I found the weekend coffee share.  It’s been a great way to make new friends and I’m really enjoying our time together.  Have a wonderful week!  ~M

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    Many thanks to Nerd In The Brain for hosting the #WeekendCoffeeShare, a collective of chats over digital coffee among bloggers. To find out more, and to see this weeks posts, go here.


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