“Sometimes we have to give up the whole world in order to keep someone who means the world to us.” ~M
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In a recent conversation, my 16 yr old daughter said this…
“Mom, I’m such a weird teen. Most kids my age are off partying, and here I am sitting here with you, pondering the philosophical meaning of life.”
I almost died from laughing so hard. Lol… 😉
Blessings and much love to all my blogger friends out there!
❤ ~M xoxo
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Well, today was a much better day. I still don’t have a working cell phone, but I rather enjoyed unplugging for once and I think I accomplished a lot more because of it. I’m still writing for Channillo, and so I added another chapter to my series today. I’m up to 6 subscribers now! Woo hoo! Lol…. I know it doesn’t seem like much, but honestly… those 6 subscribers mean the world to me right now. There’s just something about knowing that somebody, (anybody at all) is reading my very first book! It tickles me to no end! Yes, I’m smiling from ear to ear and doing the happy dance because of it.
Anyway, another thing that has me blissfully happy today, is the fact that I have been asked to start selling my poetry at one of our local shops downtown. Today I was finally able to order most of the supplies that I will need. I was able to find a ton of frames and mats on sale. Now I just need to figure out how to personalize and decorate each one, to really make them stand out. I’m just so excited to finally have the opportunity to move forward with selling some of my work. I am no longer letting these opportunity’s pass me by. It’s do or die time, and I need to be smart for once and take these God given opportunities that are finally crossing my path and just run with them.
Things on the home front have been improving. Hubby and I have really been working through some tough issues and I believe that we are finally making immense progress. My future seems to be clearer than it has been in a long time, and we have even been talking about writing a book together. Hubby’s a huge history buff and I’m not very good with remembering historical details as much as he is, so I think by combining my love for writing and his love of history, we may end up coming up with something pretty amazing. He’s been jotting down some ideas, and I think after the first of the year, we will begin to have some time to really sit down and plan what we want to write about.
I was gone all last week, as my oldest daughter recently got married in California. The ceremony was beautiful and each of them wrote their own vows to one another. I feel truly blessed, knowing that my daughter was able to find such an amazing husband. She is in good hands and I feel like I can breathe a sigh of relief, knowing that she will be well cared for. They are both currently full-time missionary’s and seem excited to stay in the mission field.
Now that I’m back in Wisconsin, I’m really missing the warm weather that we had out there. Of course I don’t miss the constant traffic that we had to deal with and the fast pace of life that seems to be the norm out there. After growing up in California, I vowed never to move back. (And really how can you, when each house is a million dollars plus on average.) I am still very much content in my choice to stay in the mid-west, where daily life is more relaxed, less expensive, and where I can actually breathe the air without coughing up a lung.
Today has been a wonderful day, I slept in late, ran errands, went to our church small group this evening, and then I came home and proceeded with the normal day to day stuff that I needed to catch up on. I feel content and happy right now and since it’s getting late here, I should sign off. So if you’re reading this, I really do hope that you have a wonderful God filled week, full of joy and happiness. Much love, to all my faithful readers. You guys are the best! ~M xoxo
“I often feel guilty for being happy.” ~M
I was once given a death threat by a roommate of mine, who claimed that I was too happy. She threatened to slit my throat while I slept, because she said I was way too happy all the time. For some reason my happiness really bothered her.
After spending months in the same room with this girl, she was finally taken forcefully from the barracks, and transported to a psychiatric ward. She was found to have knives strapped to her thighs, and a suicide letter next to her bed.
I have found it hard to be happy in front of people since that day. I feel that somehow my happiness only seems to bring others down, who are not experiencing the same joy in their own lives. Maybe there is still a part of me that fears what may happen, if perhaps I am too joyful around others. Regardless, I am very cautious now and I doubt that will ever change.
It’s so sad to me, that we live in a world where even our own happiness can be threatening to others who long to be happy themselves. I wish I didn’t have to feel guilty for being happy as often as I do. I suppose this is another reason why I find myself wanting to be alone so often. Secluding myself from others, means that I will never have to hurt them.
Life is so difficult at times, this is just another example of why I feel like I can never fully be myself around others. It’s a sad state we live in, when we cannot even show our own happiness.
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My girls were both sick this past week with the flu and I was feeling exhausted from the buckets of vomit, which seemed to be filling up faster than I could empty. As the weekend rolled around, I was definitely ready for a break. My husband told me he was planning an early birthday surprise for me and I figured with the girls being sick, he would just have to cancel whatever plans he had made.
Fortunately by Saturday afternoon, both of the girls were feeling much better and so hubby and I decided to make a break for it and leave the chaos behind. We had about an hour drive before we reached our destination. We finally arrived at a church and I was still completely clueless as to what my surprise could be. I knew it couldn’t be a marriage seminar, there were too many kids there for that! And it seemed too early in the day for a concert. So why else would we be at a church on a Saturday, at 3:00 in the afternoon?
After making our way inside, I was pleasantly surprised to find out that we were there to see my favorite Christian comedian, Tim Hawkins. I don’t think I have ever been more surprised in all my life and I have never laughed more than I did that afternoon. It was actually the first time that I had ever been surprised by my husband over the entire 22 years we’ve been married. I hope he keeps the surprises coming! Although I don’t know what he could ever do to top this! 😉
One thing that really spoke to me, was how Tim said, “The joy of the Lord is our strength.” I have heard that quoted so many times in my life, but I had never really thought about how powerful that statement is, or what it really means. After laughing so much during the show, I realized how energizing and strengthening laughter can be. Joy lifts our spirits and gives us the strength we need to make it through each and every day.
I realize now, that I need to laugh more and look for the joy in each day. I want to be flooded with the strength that comes from being happy by knowing Jesus and appreciate the life which he has given to me. Today I am thankful for laughter and I wanted to share one of Tim Hawkins videos, so that all of you will have something to laugh about too! I hope you’re all having an amazing God filled week! 😉
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