Never let them go…

“There are a rare few who have the ability to heal our scars.  I find myself holding on tight whenever I’m lucky enough to find one.”  ~M

“Medicine”

You’re my bulletproof vest when it’s getting dangerous
Always make me feel blessed, you’re my guardian angel
You are, you are, you are
Yeah, you are, you are, you are

You put your body on mine when they’re taking aim
You’re the pin in my heart, it’s a hand grenade
You are, you are, you are
The cure for all my scars

I feel like you
Could save me now
When I’m suicidal
Don’t let me spiral

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You kiss away the pain of all the hell I’m in
You’re gonna make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, you’re my medicine

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You take the pain whenever I’m in hell again
I know you’ll make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, yeah, you’re my medicine

You always say we should move to LA (move to LA), yeah
I’ll buy you a plane and I’ll fly you away (fly you away)
You are my heroine, you’re my escape
Everything gonna be Gucci today

I feel like you
Could save me now
I know I hurt you
I don’t deserve you, no no

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You kiss away the pain of all the hell I’m in
You’re gonna make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, you’re my medicine

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You take the pain whenever I’m in hell again
I know you’ll make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, yeah, you’re my medicine

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
‘Cause you’re my medicine
Yeah, yeah, whoa oh

I love the way you look in that Balenciaga
One sip of you, I’m hooked, I wanna hit it harder
No drug could feel this good, now I’m addicted to you, ooh
(Yeah)

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You kiss away the pain of all the hell I’m in
You’re gonna make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, you’re my medicine

You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline
You take the pain whenever I’m in hell again
I know you make me better than I’ve ever been
‘Cause you’re my medicine, yeah, you’re my medicine

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
‘Cause you’re my medicine
Yeah, yeah, whoa oh
 
~James Arthur
 

Photo credit: https://pixabay.com/photos/people-holding-hands-sunset-man-2561053/

A symphony is always good…

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“Having the potential to be good is not the same as actually being good, but a symphony is always good.” ~M


*I got to go to a symphony last night.  The theme was a Scottish fantasy, which featured Brahms, Symphony No. 2 in D major.  This picture was taken before everyone was actually there, but you can see still several musicians tuning their instruments.  It was quite a lovely night and I was lucky enough to get free tickets to the event.

for King and Country – God Only Knows

 

This song found me today when I needed it most.  Sometimes a song is just what we need to calm our inner demons.  ~M

 

“God Only Knows”

Wide awake while the world is sound asleepin’
Too afraid of what might show up while you’re dreamin’
Nobody, nobody, nobody sees you
Nobody, nobody would believe you
Every day you try to pick up all the pieces
All the memories, they somehow never leave you
Nobody, nobody, nobody sees you
Nobody, nobody would believe you

God only knows what you’ve been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows how it’s killing you
But there’s a kind of love that God only knows

God only knows what you’ve been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
There’s a kind of love that God only knows

There’s a kind of love that
There’s a kind of love

You keep a cover over every single secret
So afraid if someone saw them they would leave
Somebody, somebody, somebody sees you
Somebody, somebody will never leave you

God only knows what you’ve been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows how it’s killing you
But there’s a kind of love that God only knows

God only knows what you’ve been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
There’s a kind of love that God only knows

There’s a kind of love that
There’s a kind of love
There’s a kind of love that
There’s a kind of love

For the lonely, for the ashamed
The misunderstood, and the ones to blame
What if we could start over
We could start over
We could start over

For the lonely, for the ashamed
The misunderstood, and the ones to blame
What if we could start over
We could start over
We could start over

‘Cause there’s a kind of love that God only knows

God only knows what you’ve been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
There’s a kind of love that God only knows

God only knows what you’ve been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
There’s a kind of love that God only knows

There’s a kind of love that
There’s a kind of love
There’s a kind of love that
There’s a kind of love

God only knows where to find you
God only knows how to break through
God only knows the real you
There’s a kind of love that God only knows

Justin Bieber – Purpose

 

Feeling like I’m breathing my last breath
Feeling like I’m walking my last steps
Look at all of these tears I’ve wept
Look at all the promises that I’ve kept

I put my all into your hands
Here’s my soul to keep
I let you in with all that I can
You’re not hard to reach

And you bless me with the best gift
That I’ve ever known
You give me purpose
Yeah, you’ve given me purpose

Thinking my journey’s come to an end
Sending out a farewell to my friends, for inner peace
Ask you to forgive me for my sins, oh would you please?
I’m more than grateful for the time we spent, my spirit’s at ease

I put my heart into your hands
Learn the lessons you teach
No matter when, wherever I am
You’re not hard to reach

And you’ve given me the best gift
That I’ve ever known
You give me purpose everyday
You give me purpose in every way

Oh, you are my everything
Oh, you are my everything

[Spoken:]
I don’t know if this is wrong, because someone else is telling me that it’s wrong. But I feel this so let me just like try my best not to let this happen again. We weren’t necessarily put in the best position to make the best decisions

You can’t be hard on yourself for it, these are the cards you were given so you have to understand that’s not who you are. You know you’re trying to be the best you can be, but that’s all you can do. If you don’t give it all you got, you’re only cheating yourself give it all you got but if it ends up happening, it ends up happening

That’s what happening with me, it’s like “God, I’m giving it all I’ve got, sometimes I’m weak and I’m going to do it.” And it’s like I’m not giving myself grace, I’m just like understanding that’s how it is