Silence is a virtue…

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“I tend to fare better when I don’t bother speaking my mind.” ~M


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Where did my heart go?

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I feel like my heart isn’t in anything right now; I don’t want to do anything; I don’t want to go anywhere;  and least of all, I don’t want to socialize.  People are reaching out, trying to ask me if I’m ok, and to most, I can’t even respond.  I keep asking myself, “What kind of person am I?”  That I can’t even respond to a simple email, phone call, or text message.

I sort of feel like I’m floating on a raft in the middle of the ocean, and there is nothing for as far as the eye can see.  And I want to be here; out of reach of most anyone or anything.  I’m alone without a plan as to where I’m going, and I just don’t care.  I don’t want to do anything else, except for simply float peacefully along, and leave everything else behind.

I don’t think I’ve ever isolated myself as much as I am right now.  And there are times when I question why I’m doing this.  But I feel like I need it.  The quiet has been soothing to my soul.  I’m loving the peace of not having to talk to anyone, to explain myself, to share all the horrible ugly things that I’m so often dealing with.  I don’t want to talk about any of it because then it becomes real.  And I can’t deal with the reality of the things that I know I will eventually need to face.  I just don’t want to right now.

The funniest thing is, I start a social media communications class next week.  It’s a requirement for my major and one of the last general education classes that I still need.  40% of my grade will be the discussions I have with other students.  So much for being anti-social!  Lol.  At least I don’t have to talk about my personal life, but still…

Anyway, so here I am, floating along.  It’s rather calm at the moment, but that usually means there’s a storm brewing on the horizon.  And even though I can’t see it, I’m sort of securing myself to the raft right now; bracing myself for what’s to come.  I just hope the storm passes quickly if and when it finally does arrive.

Sweet serenity here I come!

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Just wanted to let all of you know that I will be escaping the confines of my office for the next four days so that I can go play in the woods. I will catch up on reading your blogs and replying to all of your comments when I return. I have a few things scheduled to post while I’m away.

Have a great week everyone! ~M

Halfway there!

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Sorry I haven’t been posting much lately or commenting as much as I normally do.  I have been so busy this month with NaNoWriMo, that I really just haven’t had much time for anything else.  I made it to 25,000 words today and it feels really good to make it this far.

Thank you to a few of my friends for giving me encouragement along the way.  Especially Carl, Dustin, and D who have shown what true friendship is all about.  Thanks to you three, I think I will make it to the finish line.

It’s been much harder to concentrate on writing the last few days after hearing about France and all that they are dealing with at the moment.  My love and prayers go out to the families who have lost loved ones and I just hope and pray that there won’t be any more attacks.