Rambling…

I finally started seeing a therapist several months ago, and my therapist has tasked me to try and figure out what I want for myself. I never really think about what I want out of life without first thinking about how my desires will impact everyone else around me. And according to my therapist, this seems to be an area that I need to work on. I place others needs before my own a lot of the time, and I mainly do it because I try to protect my friends and family, and do what seems best for them. I also tend to compare myself to other people, and think that if they’re alright with something, that I should be too. And right now, there are a lot of people telling me that I should be okay with the life I have and appreciate what I have. A lot of people think I should disregard the hard to deal with issues in my life, and just accept everything as it is; but should I? That’s another question my therapist wants me to figure out for myself. And according to him, I need to stop listening to other people and make some decisions for myself. The problem is, making decisions is difficult for me. I grew up in a very strict home, being directed and told what to do every day of my life. I wasn’t allowed to make my own decisions. And so when I was finally out on my own for the first time, having to make decisions for myself, I really didn’t know how to do that. I think it’s funny how our growing up experiences affect us so much later on in life. But this is just one example of how our upbringing can really screw us up. I know my parents did the best they could, but I just wish my mother hadn’t been so darn overprotective. Oh well… I’ve made plenty of mothering mistakes myself. Just ask my four girls… I’m sure they have a million stories to tell. I guess we can only try and do our best. We are only human, after all.

Who am I?

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“I’m the girl next door who’s hidden away; sneaking any chance there is, to read or write. I only appear in public when the fridge is empty or when someone is brave enough to seek my company.” ~M

 

And now I ask… Who are you?


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Would you rather?

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I was just playing one of my favorite games with my girls tonight called, “Would you Rather.”  It’s a great question and answer game and for one of the challenges my oldest daughter had to come up with her own question.  She asked this… “If you had the ability, would you rather change something in the past for the better or something in the future?  And as I thought about this question, I thought I’d rather change something in the future, because the idea of changing the past always makes me wonder if I’d likely then screw up the future.  But then my youngest daughter had this perspective, she said she’d rather change something in the past because in that way it would likely fix something in the future as well.  So in her mind, she was killing two birds with one stone.  Lol… She is always so much more optimistic than I am.  I suppose it’s a gamble either way no matter what choice is made.  What would you do and why?

The Narrow Gate

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The Narrow Gate

13 “Go in through the narrow gate, because the gate to hell is wide and the road that leads to it is easy, and there are many who travel it. 14 But the gate to life is narrow and the way that leads to it is hard, and there are few people who find it.

Matthew 7:13-14 Good News Translation (GNT)

I’ve been thinking about this so much lately.  Anybody have any thoughts to share?  It seems a mystery to me most days, how we’re ever supposed to find the narrow gate in the first place.  Seems difficult, if not impossible.  But nothing’s impossible with God… right?  ~M

#MidnightMadness – 12/21/2017

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Brianna – “Mom, what’s the male version of a feminist? A menimist?

Me – “No dear… he’s simply called a man.”

 

*And yes, for all who would like to argue the point, there is such a thing as a masculist.  But do men really need a name for it?  Lol…  😉


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#MidnightMadness – 5/23/2017

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“Hey Mom!  What is this, a knitting needle?”

Caitlyn Cook (daughter, age 23)

 

How many of you know what this is?  I suppose it could pass for a crochet needle, but it’s actually an orange peeler.  My girls never cease to surprise me by their odd questions, even at this age.  Lol…. 😉

#MidnightMadness – 5/15/2017

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Thought we were sort of due for another question and answer game tonight.  So…

If you could add one word to the dictionary, what would it be and what would it mean?

 

P.S.  I will choose one of the answers and write a poem about it tomorrow.  So think of a good one!  I can’t wait to see all of your responses.  ~M


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