Tag Archives: uncertainty

Pleading eyes…

 

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Your eyes they pleaded in earnest with me

To forget about the sordid past

The look was so forlorn and wearisome

Such that my heart seemed to break at last

 

I felt I had betrayed you

With the truth my heart and soul had spilled out

And I walked away feeling regretful

Fraught with unease and plagued by doubt

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


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Lord hear me…

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Lord hear me now

As I speak to you today

 

Please help me along

This unmarked pathway

 

Neither one of us is certain

Of what we should do

 

Please help us make decisions

Which are honoring to you

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


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Love in the midst of uncertainty

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Unexpectedly bewitched and profoundly mystified
Each become enthusiastically obsessed one to the other
Overwhelming passion leads to spellbound senses
Magnetic forces accelerate the compelling connection
Perceptive thoughts thoroughly examine the situation
Both seek complete understanding and clarification
She discerns his character while he studies her nature
He senses her expectant desires while she fully recognizes his
At last settled minds arouse captivated hearts to eagerly advance
Every questionable thought is now completely abandoned
Impetuous emotions commence while provocative words hover playfully
Finally reacting as tousled raindrops fluctuate invitingly over an alluring current
Destiny is set into motion and love is captured in the midst of uncertainty

Written by, Michelle Cook


Originally posted: January 26, 2016

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At the heart of sadness

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Three years of my life I’ve dedicated to writing

And yet now I don’t know how or if I can continue on this journey

My heart just isn’t in it the way it once was

I feel stuck in a life that is perfect in every way

And yet it’s also so broken and ugly that I cannot see past it

I try to disregard the guilt which I so often feel

Originally brought on by the shame of another

But time and time again I still feel it as if it were my own

And now I live with my own transgressions

Screaming at the top of my lungs in silence

Simply responding to the heart wrenching pain

Which has accumulated in my broken heart

Pieces of me have fallen so far away

That I now feel lost and mostly without purpose

Heartbreak and grief have caused an unbearable sadness in me

And somedays I just don’t know how I can move past the hurt

There are days when I am strong and days when I think I can get there

Back to that old familiar place where life was happy and simple

And then there are days like today when sorrow catches up to me

Swooping me up in a whirlwind of emotions

Then leaving me to stumble aimlessly in the dark

I feel lost as I walk through a fog of despair and uncertainty

And its times like these when I wonder if I can continue on

And I question just how much more my heart can endure

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


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Kindness…

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She bestowed genuine kindness to all

Even to those who didn’t deserve it all

And every day people were very uncertain

Of why she cared for those who were hurtin

She knew not a soul would understand

For her motivation was not her own plan

Her ideas came from the one who gave her life

By following him she knew less pain and strife

And she loved the way he filled up her heart

Blessing her daily with gifts he’d impart

She never once regretted living for him

The man who died to take away her sin

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


Poem prompt – Kindness (Suggested by, Robert C. Day)

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Reflecting…

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Reflecting on this life

The one filled with you and I

My heart is such a wreck

Though I can’t seem to tell you why

 

I’m trying to feel content

And reassure you that I care

But the heaviness in my heart

Is simply more than I can bear

 

I feel I’m pretending to be okay

When deep inside I’m not

And denying my feelings this way

Often leaves me so distraught

 

You say that you’ll be patient

And wait for that joyful day

When I can finally love you

Words you insist I will convey

 

Yet presently I’m asking

Deep within my soul

For God to make a change

And make my heart feel whole

 

Will I ever come around

I suppose only time will tell

I know I would hate to have it end

In a bittersweet farewell

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


*Written November 13, 2016.  A day when uncertainty crept in.

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Risk

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Headed for certain heartache

She risks potential danger

Exposing her heart

To the likes of a stranger

 

A gambler for sure

She takes a substantial chance

Venturing out on limb

In search of ecstasy and romance

 

Opportunity knocks

And she rushes to the door

Knowing this connection

Could be headed for more

 

With shaky uncertainty

She opens the gate

With the prospect of love

She foolishly takes the bait

 

Wagering the possibility

Of demise and peril

She takes the full plunge

Forgetting to be careful

 

Taking a shot in the dark

She’s liable to confront ruin

Facing hazardous weather

In a storm she’s now brewin

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


The Daily Post – Writing prompt- Storm

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Waves of Emotions

 

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My emotions

Surge

From one day

To the next

My mind

Races frequently

And is often

Perplexed

 ~*~

I’ve watched

Sweet chivalry

Come unexpectedly

Then go

Witnessed

A wave of emotions

Swaying haphazardly

To and fro

 ~*~

Some days

Are exciting

Others

Boring and bland

Electricity

Fires up

At the touch

Of his warm hand

 ~*~

Exploring

Every option

As he

Explores his own

Hoping In the end

For a place

We’ll both

Call home

Written by, Michelle Cook


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Resistant

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I resist the urge

To give up the fight

Understanding that He

Knows my plight

I have to trust

God knows best

Even when life

Leaves me distressed

I remind myself

It will work out

Because He understands

What it’s all about

Still I resist

His sovereign hand

Wanting things to go

As I have planned

Giving up control

Seems all I can do

The only way

I’ll ever get through

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


The Daily Post prompt – Resist

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Holding on to saving grace

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There’s days when we simply feel

Completely downtrodden and worthless

Dismal days when our past afflictions

Easily break through to the surface

And it seems nothing can contain

A heart which is full of despair

Sometimes it just needs to be freed

Perhaps find a breath of fresh air

There’s times when we successfully manage

To break free of our private pain

And those days eventually help us to overcome

The times when we’re mentally strained

It’s all about looking back to the moments

When we’ve found a bit of saving grace

And carrying those memories with us

So that we always have them just in case

Written by, Michelle Cook


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Third Day – Revelation

I was fortunate enough to see Third Day in concert before they became a well-known band.  They were opening for Michael W. Smith on the night I saw them and I haven’t stopped listening to them since.  Today has been a bit frustrating; I had a vague idea of what I wanted to write about and yet the words just aren’t flowing.  This song started playing tonight as I was getting ready to attempt to write for the hundredth time today.  So I’ll leave you with this amazing song, which contains the kind of words which I wish I had been able to write myself.  May all of you have a very blessed day!  ~M

My life has led me down the road that’s so uncertain
And now, I am left alone and I am broken
Trying to find my way
Trying to find the faith that’s gone

This time I know that You are holding all the answers
And I’m tired of losing hope and taking chances
On roads that never seem
To be the ones that bring me home

Give me a revelation
Show me what to do
Cause I’ve been trying
To find my way
I haven’t got a clue

Tell me should I stay here
Or do I need to move?
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without You
I’ve got nothing without You

My life has led me down this path that’s ever winding
Through every twist and turn, I’m always finding
That I am lost again
Tell me when this road will ever end

Give me a revelation
Show me what to do
Cause I’ve been trying
To find my way
I haven’t got a clue

Tell me should I stay here
Or do I need to move?
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without You
I’ve got nothing without

I don’t know where I can turn
Tell me, when will I learn?
Wont You show me where I need to go?
Let me follow Your lead
I know that it’s the only way that I can get back home

Give me a revelation
Show me what to do
Cause I’ve been trying
To find my way
I haven’t got a clue

Tell me should I stay here
Or do I need to move?
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without You
I’ve got nothing without You

No, oh no, oh no
Oh, give me a revelation
Oh Lord, oh no
I’ve got nothing, now, without You
I’ve got nothing, now, without You

Anguish

 

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What can I say
What can I do
My heart is completely
Torn in two

Every day
Worse than the next
This spider’s web
Just too complex

Sunlight filters in
At arbitrary times
I hold my breath
And close my eyes

Encouraged by the light
I’m filled with hope
And given the strength
To somehow cope

Yet as the day
Draws to a close
I find myself afflicted
By formidable repose

Every ounce of my being
Is painfully compelled
To give up hope
I’m simply overwhelmed

Giving up now
I know I will not gain
I will only bring
More heartache and pain

Realizing the path
No easy way through
I need to break free
And run to you

Unprepared and hurting
By the anguish I feel
My only thought now
This can’t be real

 
Written by, Michelle Cook

 

 

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Uncertainty…

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Always going through the same old motions
Trying so hard to live out everyday devotions
Seems like I let the trivial things always get to me
I just can’t help but wonder about my ultimate destiny
When the days are excruciatingly long and tiresome
I become impatient not knowing the future outcome
Why must we always question? Why must we always long to know?
Why can’t we just allow His love to lead us and let the rest of it all go?

 

Written by, Michelle Cook

 

 

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Another potential goodbye…

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Farewell to the days of the past

The days when consistency seemed to last

Looking to the future now

Not quite sure the way or how

There’s got to be a way

For you to be convinced to stay

Goodbyes can be so hard

But I can’t let down my guard

I’ve got to take each day as it comes

Despite what life may become

You know I’ll stick with you

There’s got to be a way to get through

It never gets any easier though

And I really don’t want to see you go

Say you’ll change your mind

Or we might end up realigned

I don’t want to take that chance

Can’t you hold out for a better advance?

 

Written by, Michelle Cook