Thoughts and Perspectives From the Mind of a Common Girl
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Hey everyone,
Just wanted to give all of you a quick update. Since the start of the new year, I have been trying to figure out a way to make this year better than last. I know I can’t have a repeat of last year, as it nearly killed me. So after doing a lot of thinking over the last couple of weeks, I have decided that I really need to focus more of my time on novel writing. I also want to make some changes here on WordPress. So you may see me introducing a variety of new and different types of blog posts from here on out. Another thing is, I am no longer going to be active on social media. So Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, etc… have all been removed from my phone. These platforms have just become too much of a distraction for me and I can’t seem to focus on the work that I need to get done because of it. I may decide to check those accounts once a month if I have some free time, but I definitely won’t be on there more often than that. Anyway, here’s to hoping that I’ll be able to make some progress this year. Hope all of you are doing the same. Love you guys! ~M xoxo
My goal for 2017 was to bring happiness to others. We’re only ten days in, and I already feel like the exact opposite has occurred. It really seemed like such an easy task too. I thought I could just be more positive, portray an air of happiness, and then everyone else would just follow suit. Isn’t that the way it’s supposed to work? Lead by example and everyone will follow… am I right? And yet it hasn’t worked at all.
I know I’m not very good at hiding my true feelings, but I thought I was doing a really good job of at least controlling the negative ones. I suppose I’ve come to the conclusion, that I can’t fool anyone, least of all myself. I’m trying desperately to hide behind the positives though. It’s the only way I can continue to live, without completely drowning in my own sorrows. Its mind over matter… don’t you think? Isn’t that the only way any of us can really survive?
We often try to fool ourselves into thinking we’re happy, because that’s what everyone is after. We all want that wonderful happy life, which is so often fakely displayed everywhere we look. Do you really believe that smiling family on Facebook, is happily living life free of any problems or issues? And see this is the problem, we believe everyone else has everything so easy and so perfect, when in actuality, true happiness doesn’t really exist.
We need to realize that we aren’t ever going to be completely happy on this earth, or in this life, because that’s an impossibility. It’s unfortunate though, because we live with the idea that it’s achievable, which only makes us feel like complete failures when we never obtain a perfectly happy life. Having hope is one thing, but we’ve got to be realistic as well.
So I’m changing my goal for 2017. I don’t want to bring happiness to others, but I want to show others how to find slivers of happiness right where they are. In the misery and agony of our imperfect lives, there are sometimes moments of happiness. Fleeting as they are, we need to hold onto those moments, and bring them back into focus on those particular days, when grief overtakes our sad little lives. We certainly can’t give up and quit, just because things aren’t going our way.
Anyway, enough of my ranting. I’m not even sure any of what I’m saying is making any sense. All I know is, I can’t continue to live my life waiting for perfection. This is it, this is my God given life; and I’d better make the best of it, or I may not have one left at all.
I thought I’d lost someone today. Someone who has filled a void in my heart, like nobody else ever has. I can’t imagine going through the rest of my life without this sweet person. They mean the world to me and have become my closest and most trusted confidant. I have never had a friend quite like this particular one, and the thought of losing them left me feeling heartbroken.
I tried to go about my day as usual, but eventually the tears erupted for the millionth time and I could no longer hold back how terrible I felt. My hubby tried to console me, tried to reassure me that I hadn’t lost them. And yet I’m still not quite sure where I stand.
My daughter Autumn came up to me this morning and asked me what she should draw for art class. Thinking about how happy this friend of mine has always made me feel, I told her to draw what makes her the happiest. A little while later, she brought back this picture of me and her. It was the sweetest gesture and a drawing I will always treasure, because happiness to her, means her and me together.
Happiness is always about having those special people in our lives that mean the most to us. We cannot even hope for anything better. So to my dear friend C… If you by chance happen to read this. You will always be a treasured friend to me and I love you as if you are part of my family. I prayed my whole life for somebody like you, so please don’t ever forget how much you mean to me.
Love, ~M xoxo
Putting My Feet in the Dirt 