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Time for a summer break…

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#weekendcoffeeshare – Do you ever just feel like giving up?

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Good morning fellow bloggers!  How have all of you been lately?  I’m so glad you decided to visit me today.  I’ve got plenty of hot tea and coffee, or iced tea if you prefer that instead.  So pick what you like best and let’s sit down and have a heart to heart talk.  Okay, I’m not gonna lie.  This conversation is not going to be all hearts and flowers.  But I’m keeping it real today.

So here it is, I’m just gonna lay it all out here and let my heart sort of bleed onto this boring white page.  I’ve been struggling worse than I think I ever have before.  I can’t seem to escape these depressive thoughts anymore.  I’m doing everything in my power to try and do something about it.  Since writing is what I’m most passionate about, I’ve been trying to focus on creating more humorous posts.  I’m also getting outside more and doing things that I normally love to do.  But for some reason, I just can’t seem to lose this sinking feeling within myself.  I’m not really sure what to do about any of it.  I’m definitely feeling the pull to break away from everything and everyone around me.  I’ve been doing the fake smile thing lately.  Hopeful that nobody notices how I’m really feeling.  Of course then there’s always that one person who ruins it for me and asks me how I’m doing.  Then the tears start to well up and I can’t even answer back.  And of course they have no idea why their question has set me off and I end up feeling like an idiot for not being able to respond to their question properly.

I’m also at a crossroad in my life right now and I’m making a huge effort to try and work on my relationship with my hubby.  He’s about to leave again since he’s in the military and I’m not sure when I will have a chance to see him again.  I very much love him, but I feel our relationship is still very fragile, and because he’s leaving, I wonder if it’s going to hinder the progress that we’ve made.  Fear is sort of taking hold of me at the moment because we are facing so many unknowns.  Anyway, he and I have talked in depth about all of this and I think we are both just sort of holding our breath, hopeful for a happy ending.  These last couple of years have taken their toll on both of us and perhaps being apart will be the best thing for us.  Being away from each other has often helped us in the past.  It seems to give us the time we need to sort out our feelings.

Another thing I’m struggling with is the fact that I don’t really know anybody where I live, and so with my hubby leaving, I’m beginning to feel like I’m about to be stranded.  We’ve always moved around so much that I’ve never really been able to establish any close friends where I live.   And because we’re always moving, I also tend to shy away from making friends in the first place.  It seems easier not to have any friends than to always be saying goodbye to them.  Since I really don’t have any close ties to Wisconsin, I’m thinking I will welcome another move in the coming future.  I’ve always loved the feel of a fresh start in a new place.  I get bored easily when I stay in one place for too long and my love for travel leaves me ever wanting to get away.

Anyway, these are the main things I’m struggling with at the moment, and so if I tend to throw a sort of depressive post in the batch once in a while, please forgive me for doing so.  I’m just not always in the best frame of mind and sometimes there are days which just seem to get the better of me.  I hope all of you are doing well and staying in good health.  I want to thank all of you for being my long distance friends and for always showing me how much you care.  Blogging has been a great outlet for me, and since I do move around so much, I’m blessed that I can take all of you with me wherever I go.  😉

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#MidnightMadness – 6/13/2017

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“It’s not what a man has but what a man is that’s important. As long as a man knows what he is and who he is, he’ll do all right.”

~Catch Me If You Can: The True Story of a Real Fake” by Frank W. Abagnale, Stan Redding


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#MidnightMadness – 6/10/2017

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Me – Am I the wave of your future?

Him – No, you’re my density.

Me – Huh? You mean your destiny?

Him – No, watch Back to the Future.

Me – Ok… George McFly.


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#MidnightMadness – 5/28/2017

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If you could live your life over, would you change anything?


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#MidnightMadness – 5/27/2017

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A conversation from earlier today…

Brianna- “Mom, why don’t you like dealing with the dogs?”

Me- “Because I don’t really enjoy picking up poop the size of my head, and I’ve changed enough diapers in my life from you four girls, that I’m quite done dealing with anymore poop.”

Brianna- “Yeah mom, I understand, you already have enough crap to deal with in your life.”


Photo taken: May 2017 (Brianna (15), Emma, & Pippa)

Imagine…

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“God gave us an imagination because he knew we would eventually need a break from reality.” ~M


Originally posted: December 5, 2015

#MidnightMadness – 5/22/2017

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For the guy in my neighborhood, who was washing his car in the rain today.  This one’s for you.  Lol… 😉


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#MidnightMadness – 5/21/2017

My daughter and her husband have started a YouTube channel.  Check them out and subscribe!  😉

#MidnightMadness – 5/20/2017

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Certain discoveries were made today at the lunch table…

“Look mom!  A head with a hat!”

~Autumn Cook (Age 8)

I never knew blueberries and raspberries could look like people.  Lol…  😉

#MidnightMadness – 5/12/2017

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“Even the tiniest flicker of light from the last flame of hope, can be all that’s needed to start a world ablaze.”  ~M

He never fails me…

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“The Lord never fails me. His purpose is always so much greater than my own.” ~M


Originally posted: November 20, 2015

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#MidnightMadness – 5/11/2017

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“No matter the cost, the obstacles, the sacrifices, or the distance, love always finds a way.”  ~M


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#MidnightMadness – 5/10/2017

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If you could only eat a certain color of food for the rest of your life, which color would you choose?


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#MidnightMadness – 5/9/2017

Every night at the dinner table, we have somebody pose a question.  Tonight my daughter asked… “What’s the weirdest dream you’ve ever had?”  My husband immediately chimes in… “Nope, there’s not enough time in this life for that one!”  And straightaway he looks right at me and smirks.  Lol….

Here’s a few of them I’ve written about… what do you think, is he right?  😉

The Narrow Escape

It was the year 2117…

A dream that I will never forget…

Premonition

The Vision

Another Vision