Heart issues…

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Yesterday I had the opportunity to visit Copper Falls State Park, in northern Wisconsin.  Hubby and I have been having quite a rough patch lately and so we decided that we really needed a day away to just enjoy the beauty of God’s wonderful creation.  Whenever we’re feeling far away from each other, we are usually feeling very much apart from God as well, and it always seems the closer we get to God, the closer we get to each other.

It’s been a very tough year for us and I have been searching for answers to try and sort things out for both of us.  It’s hard to admit it, but I really feel like we have drifted apart in a way that makes it very difficult to reconnect.  I would say outwardly, we look like the perfect couple.  We never fight or argue, we have fun together, we laugh, we are still very intimate, and we generally like to spend time with each other.  I know most people would be saying at this point, well than what’s the problem?

The problem seems to be a heart issue with me.  I love this man of mine dearly, but I don’t feel that I am in-love with him.  I find myself so often wishing that I could change the way I feel about him, but the more I try, the more hopeless I become.  Can I stay married to somebody that I am not in-love with?  I would say absolutely yes.  I have lived this way for so long now, feeling this way about him, and so it has become routine for me.  I don’t believe in divorce and I know that life isn’t always greener on the other side anyway.  So I feel I just need to go along with who I chose to be with, who I made lifelong vows to, and just accept the fact that there is one significant piece missing, and hope I will someday find that missing piece within our relationship.

We have a very unique relationship in that he knows my deepest darkest secrets, and I know his as well.  Knowing those things is very hard and not always easy to understand, and yet we both accept each other for who we are and try to move forward every day.  Neither one of us has ever wanted to give up on the other, and he has really been patient with me lately, just wanting me to find happiness, even if it isn’t with him.  And so we continue on, hoping that the future will bring clarity to both of us.  Life isn’t always easy, but I believe I am blessed in a million amazing ways and I never want to take those blessings for granted.

Lake Superior & the Apostle Islands

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There are a few places I visited this past summer, which I have still not shared with any of you.  So today I have decided to show you what it was like to explore Lake Superior and the Apostle Islands.

IMG_2913Lake Superior is surrounded by three different states (Wisconsin, Michigan, and Minnesota) and Ontario, Canada as well.  Lake Superior is also the world’s largest freshwater lake and I was surprised by how large it really is.  In fact, when you are standing near the waters edge, it gives you the illusion that you are actually looking at an ocean instead of an actual lake.  The only difference was the lack of a sandy beach from where we were.

IMG_2945I recently learned that Lake Superior has over 400 islands.  The apostle islands are a group of 22 islands off the Bayfield peninsula in Northern Wisconsin, and this is where we decided to spend our first day.  We chose Madeline Island in particular for our first destination.  Madeline Island is located in the Chequamegon Bay area of Lake Superior. To get there, we had to drive to Bayfield, Wisconsin and then take a 2.5 mile ferry trip in order to reach the island.

IMG_3537We took our car with us on the ferry ride over and because of this, we were able to drive to the state park which is in more of a remote area of the island.  I was quite impressed by how serene it was there.  I felt as if I had stepped into another world, since there were hardly any other people around.   Don’t get me wrong though, there are still quite a few people that live on Madeline Island.  During the winter months, access to the ferry is impossible.  So I am not sure how people live there during the winter season.  I suppose all of their supplies must be flown in.  I could actually imagine myself living there someday.  I think it would be the perfect place to be flooded with inspiration.

IMG_3536After exploring Madeline Island, we made our way back to Bayfield, Wisconsin and found it to be quite a charming place.  The shops were bustling with tourists and there were quite a few places to eat.  As the sun began to set, there was a live concert down by the waters edge and everyone in the town seemed to converge upon the scene all at once.  Avoiding the crowds, we opted to eat at a restaurant in a less crowded area and the food was amazing!  After dinner, we walked around the town for a little while longer, just enjoying the sights and sounds of this amazing small town.  We stayed until most of the shops started to close.

IMG_3517On the way home, we pulled off the road into a viewing area and stepped out to look at the night sky.  We could clearly see the Milky Way.  It felt as if we could almost reach out and touch it.  Such a breathtaking sight, and then we witnessed a meteor shower as well.  The only disappointing part, was that we were not able to see the Northern Lights while we were there.  I have only seen them occur once in my life and so I had hoped for the opportunity to see them once again.  Oh well, it gives me another reason to go back again.  Here’s a poem I wrote, about my experience of seeing the northern lights for the first time.

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Field Trip to Old World Wisconsin

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IMG_0051My family and I recently visited Old World Wisconsin, which is located in Eagle, Wisconsin. IMG_0054  It just happened to be the first day that we hadn’t had rain in weeks, and the weather was perfect!

When we first arrived, we were ushered to the gift shop to pay the entrance fee and receive our map.  Then we proceeded to the tram which took us to our desired location. IMG_0012                                                       Old World Wisconsin consists of many historical buildings that are situated on 600 acres.  The historical site is broken down into different ethnic farms and villages.

The first stop we made was to the German and Polish farms. IMG_0013  We had fun spinning flax into thread.  We also took a tour of the woodworking shop, where we got to use some woodworking tools which were originally used in the 1800’s. IMG_0039

After that, we made our way back to the tram and headed over to the Clausing Barn Café; where we enjoyed an all-American meal of hamburgers, chicken strips, brats, and grilled cheese sandwiches. IMG_0090

After we finished our meal we decided to walk to the 1880’s Yankee village and proceeded to explore the town. IMG_0106  We learned how to wash laundry on an old washboard.

We visited the blacksmith to learn how to make horseshoes.  We even shopped in the general store, where we bought Earl Gray tea, a hand-made wooden fan, and a small chalkboard. IMG_0147

Finally, we decided that it was getting late and we knew that the site closed at 5 p.m.; so we walked over to the Caldwell Farmers Club Hall to play some last-minute games; and peddle a reproduction tricycle around a small track.  On our way out, we headed back to the gift shop and bought some beverages for the road.  IMG_0161We had such a fun day, and we look forward to going back again soon.   We only visited about half of the villages before we had to go, so we are looking forward to another trip back soon to see the remainder of what we missed.

To get more information about Old World Wisconsin, go here.

Colton Dixon – Never Gone

Did you realize that Colton Dixon is a Christian singer/songwriter?  Every song that he sings gives glory to God and shows the impact that God has had on his own life.  Also, Colton Dixon is coming to Lifest 2015.  If you’re in Wisconsin, July 9 – 12, you might want to head up to Oshkosh and see him in person!