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Pleading eyes…

 

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Your eyes they pleaded in earnest with me

To forget about the sordid past

The look was so forlorn and wearisome

Such that my heart seemed to break at last

 

I felt I had betrayed you

With the truth my heart and soul had spilled out

And I walked away feeling regretful

Fraught with unease and plagued by doubt

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


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Breathless

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The window swung open

Not a breath of wind in the stale air

And golden tresses cascaded

Over ivory shoulders cold and bare

 

Her thoughts were deeply rooted

In the splash of blue of her faraway stare

And her heart stood there broken

Lost in a dream which was far from there

 

The crash of waves interrupted

Her lonely despairing thoughts

And her mind fought to refocus

On what the new day had brought

 

But at last her mental clarity

Betrayed her once more

As she stumbled and fell dead

Against the unconcerned floor

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


Poetry prompt: The window swung open, not a breath of wind in the air

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#MidnightMadness – 4/7/2017

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He was the boy

Who brought a smile

Wherever he went

 

Yes, he was that boy…

And my tears just won’t relent

 

*Sorry folks, but grief won out tonight… ~M


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#weekendcoffeeshare – Loss of a friend

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If we were having coffee, I’d tell you how very sad I’ve been feeling over the past couple of weeks.  It’s been a very tough month for me, and I’m living with so many unanswered questions.

Near the beginning of the month, I lost my closest friend.  I haven’t dealt with it very well, but I’m trying my best to let go.  For whatever reason, my friend decided to move on without telling me they were leaving.

I think the hardest part for me, is not knowing why; and I know I never will.  The reason I know I never will, is because I dreamt of them leaving.  It was a fairly recent dream, one I dreamt a few weeks before they disappeared.  I didn’t understand the meaning then, but of course I do now.  I cannot even fathom why they left, especially without saying goodbye; other than maybe they just had no other choice.

I admit at first, I was angry and hurt, and I vowed to myself that I would never trust another person again.  And yes my guard is still up, but I did allow myself to visit with a woman who lives nearby, and it did help to speak with her. I poured my heart out to her and she listened.  She eventually told me it was probably for the better; and even though I hesitate to agree with her, in the back of my mind, I know she’s probably right.

So as hard as it is to live with this sense of loss and pain in my heart, I know I will eventually be okay.  Every day that passes, is another day to find other things to be happy about; and to try and find contentment, even in the monotony of everyday life.

I have never been a quitter, and so I will not give up trying to find a positive light, even in this.  The Lord knows my path better than me, and so I have to ultimately give all of this to him, and let him show me where I should go from here.


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Heartbroken

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When your heart is troubled and breaking
Look to a friend to comfort and kiss away the aching

When you’re feeling sad and terribly blue
Remember that there’s others who feel just like you

When you can’t remember the last time you were completely content
Think about the good times and how much they really meant

When the days are long and you lose your way
Find your inner strength and remember to pray

When the day is cold and dreary and fitting for your mood
Stop thinking about the people who have been quite rude

When you’re abandoned once again by that special one
Do something exciting and go have some fun

When you can’t see all the positives waiting for you
Leave your current location and find a new view

When it all seems hopeless and there’s no love in sight
Go find a good friend and hug them real tight

When you’ve tried everything and still can’t find your bliss
Keep trudging along and don’t dwell on the one you miss

When the right time comes, you’ll find an even better catch
Which in time you’ll come to see, is a much better match

Written by, Michelle Cook


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Departed

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Words escape me

As reality sinks in

Can’t stop the pain

From growing within

 

Gone is the word

For this miserable week

One left to death

The other won’t speak

 

One a sixteen year old life

The son I wished I’d had

Taken from us tragically

Our hearts now very sad

 

The other a friend

Closest I’ve ever had

Disappeared completely

I’ve never been so sad

 

And now I’m left to wonder

If there’s more to come

The sorrows in this life

Just can’t be overcome

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


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Love isn’t for the fainthearted

 

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All I could think of

Were depressive thoughts

My stomach was completely

Tied up in knots

I hadn’t eaten anything

In a zillion days

I laid there on my bed

In complete malaise

The absence of him

Was more than I could bear

All I could do

Was lay there and stare

My body felt heavy

I just couldn’t move

I knew that without him

I would never improve

The minutes felt like days

And the days felt like years

And I found myself crying

An insane amount of tears

The earth completely shattered

On the day he departed

I now realize that love

Isn’t for the fainthearted

 

Written by, Michelle Cook


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You will always be my treasured friend…

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I thought I’d lost someone today.  Someone who has filled a void in my heart, like nobody else ever has.  I can’t imagine going through the rest of my life without this sweet person.  They mean the world to me and have become my closest and most trusted confidant.  I have never had a friend quite like this particular one, and the thought of losing them left me feeling heartbroken. 

I tried to go about my day as usual, but eventually the tears erupted for the millionth time and I could no longer hold back how terrible I felt.  My hubby tried to console me, tried to reassure me that I hadn’t lost them.  And yet I’m still not quite sure where I stand. 

My daughter Autumn came up to me this morning and asked me what she should draw for art class.  Thinking about how happy this friend of mine has always made me feel, I told her to draw what makes her the happiest.  A little while later, she brought back this picture of me and her.  It was the sweetest gesture and a drawing I will always treasure, because happiness to her, means her and me together.   

Happiness is always about having those special people in our lives that mean the most to us.  We cannot even hope for anything better.  So to my dear friend C… If you by chance happen to read this.  You will always be a treasured friend to me and I love you as if you are part of my family.  I prayed my whole life for somebody like you, so please don’t ever forget how much you mean to me. 

 

Love, ~M  xoxo