Trudging along…

Well, I know I haven’t been around for a while, but I’ve been working really hard to get through school.  Blogging has sort of had to take a backseat for the time being because of the amount of work I’ve had to do.  I’ve managed to stay at the top of my class since I started, and today I received the best news ever.  I ended up with a perfect score on my final exam and was told it was one of the best finals that my professor has ever received.  My exam consisted of five essays and ended up being eleven pages long, so to find out how well I did, caused the tears to flow straight away.  For a writer especially, I think we want to know that our writing is good and we crave encouraging feedback.  So for me, today is just the best day ever.  To know somebody thought so highly of my work just makes all the difference in the world to me.  Finding out about how well I’ve done, makes me feel like all the effort I’ve been putting forth is finally paying off.  There have been some days when I haven’t been sure, when I’ve doubted everything and have wanted to throw in the towel and call it quits.  So often, I feel like my time is spread so thin, I don’t have enough of me to go around, and I feel like I’ve had to let some people down because of it.  I hardly ever put myself first in anything I do, but I’ve had no other choice since I started school this year, and the guilt has been eating me up inside.  Feels like my family suffers because of it and I hate knowing that.  But I also know in my heart that there is a reason behind all of this madness.  I feel like this is leading me down a path that I need to continue to follow.  I’m not sure where this will eventually take me, but I’m really excited to find out.  And I’ve made myself a promise not to give up no matter how hard it gets.  I need to do this and discover exactly what it is that I’m eventually supposed to do.  And maybe in the process, I’ll actually figure out what I want to be when I grow up.  I think that’s a question most of us ask ourselves our whole lives.  It would be so great to finally have an answer for that.

50 thoughts on “Trudging along…

  1. As always great job my dear, you have worked hard and I’ve seen it. Just know I won’t let you quit and I will be there the whole time encouraging you on, I am and always have been and always will be your biggest fan and supporter…

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  2. Congratulations, M!! There’s nothing like knowing that your hard work pays off (and that it’s acknowledged). I started my journey last month — I’m taking my Master’s part time. I’ve been juggling my study with full-time work so I can relate to this. Now, I hope you give yourself a little reward, maybe by not doing anything for a day. 😊

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    1. Thank you. I feel so happy today because of it. Gives me hope that I can keep doing this. I start more classes on Monday. Fingers crossed that they go just as well. 🙂

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    1. Thank you… And Yes!!! That’s exactly it! Oh I’m so glad to know that somebody else can relate to this. I’m definitely the old fogy in my class, and it’s been a challenge to keep up!

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  3. Congratulations! Glad you got a written note versus just the score. He’s right, professors read so many papers that they welcome well-written and thought provoking ones. Continue to pursue your dream. There is plenty of time to figure out where you will end up.

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      1. You’re welcome! 😉 You’ve been working so hard and you deserve good news like that. And you’re hard work’s result deserves a congratulation! Keep going! You’ve got this! ❤

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